Oh Jonica, I empathise I truly do. I so often feel like this myself. I all too often feel I’m sinking beneath piles of laundry and dirty dishes.
I push myself harder than I should every day, for my family, then drown myself in guilt because whatever I manage to do will never be enough. I’m failing them and that knowledge cuts deep.
I too have multiple chronic pain/fatigue conditions, am carer for my partner (who is in an even worse state health wise) and have a 17 year old with their own set of challenges.
This morning I cancelled a therapy appointment in the next town because getting myself and everyone else up and organised, then being able to get out of the house and drive a few miles is simply a mountain I am unable to climb today.
So you’re not alone — and I’m stretching a virtual hand out, if you have the strength to hold it.